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		<title>Review:  Deep Country &#8211; Neil Ansell</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 08 Apr 2011 07:43:47 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Tom</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>Britain has the reputation for being an over-crowded country with a population much the same as France but with only one third of its area. These figures can mask the fact that much of the British population is located in cities and conurbations and as soon as you drive outside these you can find solitude [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><a href="http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/book/9780241145005/Deep-Country?a_aid=acommonreader" target="_blank"><img class="alignleft size-full wp-image-3374" style="margin: 9px;" title="Deep Country - Neil Ansell" src="http://acommonreader.org/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/9780241145005.jpg" alt="" width="250" height="402" /></a>Britain has the reputation for being an over-crowded country with a population much the same as France but with only one third of its area. These figures can mask the fact that much of the British population is located in cities and conurbations and as soon as you drive outside these you can find solitude a-plenty, even in counties like my own, East Sussex.  However, Wales is a much less-populated region and if you hanker after the quiet life, that could be the place for you.</p>
<p>Neil Ansell had the opportunity to rent a dilapidated cottage deep in the hills of Mid-Wales, in countryside so remote that you could walk twenty miles in one direction without encountering another dwelling.  What started as short-term let, turned out to be a five-year period of solitary living, far removed from the services we expect to find today &#8211; hot water from a tap, central heating and plumbing.  The rent of £100 a year reflected the lack of services but failed to take account of the incredible beauty of the location and the land available to the tenant.</p>
<p>Neil has a great affinity with nature and things which would phase other people were causes of delight.  I am not sure how I would feel about sharing my home with twenty of thirty bats for example.  Even Neil however baulked at the spring-invasions of mice &#8211; fortunately the pretty field mouse variety rather than the disease carrying house mouse.  The mice reduced Neil to hanging food in carrier bags from ham hooks embedded in the ceiling.  The only way Neil could reduce the population of mice was to trap them and carry them across a river where he released them.  No doubt killing them would have had no effect other than to make space for others.</p>
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<p>Neil found that his life settled down into natural rhythms, &#8220;I had a daily routine dictated by the simplicty of my lifestyle, and an annual routine too, led by the seasons, the elements&#8221;.  He even developed his own rituals, such as seeing in the New Year from the summit of his hill or walking overnight into the hills at the Summer Solstice so he could watch the dawn from a mountain top.</p>
<p>Five years of solitude was broken up by visits from friends, but Neil became accustomed to his way of life and found that he welcomed the return to quietness when they departed.  He writes,</p>
<blockquote><p>I couldn&#8217;t fee lonely.  Loneliness is the product of an isolation that has not been freely chosen.  You can feel more lonely in the midst of a crowd of people if those people are not giving you the human contact you desir, in the same way that poverty surrounded by affluence feels harsher, more shocking, than poverty shared.</p></blockquote>
<p>While it is interesting to read how Neil looked after himself, the major part of the book is a sort of extended nature diary &#8211; fascinating for anyone who loves the ebb and flow of the seasons and the changing wildlife that accompanies them.  The hills of Wales are remarkable rich in wild-life of every description and Neil went out of his way to cultivate a relationship with it &#8211; maintaining a large number of nest boxes for example, which he patrolled regularly to check on the progress of his many bird families.</p>
<p>He became remarkably attuned to the life around him and was aware of every bird in his patch and any new arrivals which turned up.  He rescued an ailing raven at one point and took it indoors to care for it, until passing it on to experts who could nurture it back to a full life.  I was reminded of a time I went for a walk I knew well in the company of an enthusiastic bird-watcher &#8211; he kept pointing out birds which I hadn&#8217;t even noticed before and began to realise that the area I lived in was far richer in wild-life than I had imagined.</p>
<p>Neil already had an interest in &#8220;food for free&#8221; having lived in Sweden where &#8220;foraging in the wood in autumn is practically a national pastime&#8221;.  He gathered chanterelles, parasols and ceps, preserving them in olive oil with dill and coriander seeds.  He made thirty jars of jam each year from berries found in the woods, and he gathered wild strawberries &#8211; a pleasure I have shared while walking in South Wales.</p>
<p>Neil had two mild winters and then a third winter when he was snowed in for six weeks.  Fortunately his hoard of logs supplied warmth enough, and he was able to draw flocks of birds and individaul rarities to his home with strategically placed seed and nuts.</p>
<p>The solitary life was a phase which could not last forever. Neil is now a successful BBC journalist and lives with his family  in the city of Brighton. He still returns to his Welsh cottage but things are not quite the same &#8211; in his epilogue he gives the impression of returning to the location of an earlier part of his life, now long gone.</p>
<p>Neil has recorded a video for Penguin Books with some footage of the cottage which lets us get a good idea of where he spent his five years with nature and self-sufficiency.</p>
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		<title>Review:  Life as a Literary Device &#8211; Vitali Vitaliev</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 21 Jul 2010 07:34:10 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Tom</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>British readers may remember Vitali Vitaliev from his time as Moscow correspondent on David Frost&#8217;s 1990s television programme, Saturday Night Clive, and many broadcasts on BBC Radio 4. Vitali was born in the Ukraine, eventually defecting to the West, living in Britain and Australia, and eventually returning to London where he is a successful journalist [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><a href="http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/book/9781905636440/Life-as-a-Literary-Device?a_aid=acommonreader" target="_blank"><img class="alignleft size-full wp-image-2017" title="Life as a Literary Device - Vitali Vitaliev" src="http://acommonreader.org/wp-content/uploads/2010/07/9781905636440.jpg" alt="" width="280" height="421" /></a>British readers may remember Vitali Vitaliev from his time as Moscow correspondent on David Frost&#8217;s 1990s television programme, Saturday Night Clive, and many broadcasts on BBC Radio 4. Vitali was born in the Ukraine, eventually defecting to the West, living in Britain and Australia, and eventually returning to London where he is a successful journalist and writer.</p>
<p><a href="http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/book/9781905636440/Life-as-a-Literary-Device?a_aid=acommonreader" target="_blank">Life as A Literary Device</a>, is partly biographical, partly reportage, and partly miscellaneous musing on life.  The book consists of  &#8221;seemingly disjointed snippets of real life, they connect by association alone &#8211; the random pieces of coloured glass that from themselves into a pattern if viewed through that wonderful children&#8217;s toy, the kaleidoscope&#8221;.</p>
<p>Early in the book he writes of being influenced by the Russian writer Valentin Kataev, the founder of a literary style which he called &#8220;mauvism&#8221; &#8211; &#8220;a literary device consisting of the complete negation of all literary devices&#8221;.  The term <em>mauvism </em>comes from the French word &#8220;mauvais&#8221; meaning &#8220;bad&#8221;, and as Kataev himself wrote, &#8220;I am the founder of the latest literary school, the <em>mauvistes</em>,  the essence of which is that since everyone nowadays writes very well, you must write badly, as badly as possible, then you will attract attention&#8221;.</p>
<p>I am pleased to say that Vitaliev does not write badly &#8211; far from it in fact, but he has certainly held to the principle of mauvism in writing a book for the Internet age where  &#8221;one website routinely carries links to many others.  You open a link in a story that you are reading and it takes you away to another story loosely connected to the first one yet years and/or miles away from it;  you then close the link and return to the story you were reading in the first place&#8221;.</p>
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<p>The result is a book which holds the interest throughout as Vitaliev describes his travels in various parts of the globe, muses on countless contemporary themes and journals his way through marital breakup, unemployment and temporary states of depression.  I am sure that there are hundreds of topics and themes covered in this substantial, 565 page volume, but the book does not seem to be particularly long when you are reading it.</p>
<p>Its very difficult to describe this book, a vast potpourri of thoughts, impressions, reminiscences so perhaps the best way in to describing it is to give a few examples of the topics covered.</p>
<p><strong>The plight of asylum-seekers sent to live in almost uninhabitable blocks of flats in Sighthill, Glasgow</strong>:</p>
<blockquote><p>Covered with graffiti &#8211; like the body of a hardened criminal with tattoos &#8211; Sighthill was far from a pretty sight.  What struck me most however, was neither dust and litter flying in my face, nor frozen spittle in the lifts or putrid puddles of dubious origin under my feet, but the behaviour of some of its Scottish residents.  Whereas foreigners  were invariably civil, neatly dressed and polite, the &#8220;locals&#8221;, particularly teenagers, were &#8211; with very few exceptions &#8211; foul-mouthed, agressive, uncouth and either tipsy or dead-drunk (or stoned).  They corresponded to the image of would-be terrorists better than any of the asylum-seekers of Sighthill.</p></blockquote>
<p><strong>The growth of &#8220;book towns&#8221; such as Hay on Wye and </strong><strong>Wigtown</strong>:</p>
<blockquote><p>In the tiny picturesque Ardennes village of Redu in Belgium, there are now as many bookshops &#8211; twenty four &#8211; as there are children and the trade is drawing in 350,000 visitors every year.  Interestingly, before bookshops appeared in its centre, the village was experiencing the same economic woes as Hay on Wye.  Bredevort in the Netherlands also copied the magic &#8220;Hay forumula&#8221; and now boasts 300,000 visitors a year.</p></blockquote>
<p><strong>Vitaliev&#8217;s love for old guidebooks</strong>:</p>
<blockquote><p>I am proud to have discovered my own way of time-travelling &#8211; Baedekers, Murrays, Bradshaws, Cooks &#8211; of all of which I am a passionate collector.  To me these pocket-size tattered volumes are full of time travel magic, especially when I find an old London Tube map (with a curtailed pink &#8220;Northern line&#8221; ending at Highgate), a faded landing card, or just a dried out hundred year old flower in between their tattered pages.  Touching such books is like touching eternity itself, for bygone realities and small practicalities of a distant past come to life in their estranged, meticulous and matter of fact style.  In this respect old guide-books are preferable to fiction:  they provide me with an ossified time carcass, which I am free to fill with the contents of today&#8217;s reality.</p></blockquote>
<p>Not that there aren&#8217;t major themes running through the book.  The core experience Vitaliev was going through in the years he compiled this material was separation from wife and family and unemployment.  During this period he was offered at cheap rent, a small cottage in the run-down South Coast town of Folkestone.  Folkestone proved to be a dispiriting place for Vitaliev and he captures the sense of down-at-heel decay which has afflicted the harbour area of the town now that the ferry services have largely departed the town.  The place matched his mood only too well, and having had a similar time of isolation in a small town myself in my early twenties I could relate all too well to these sections of the book while giving thanks that I have never had to endure such a time again.</p>
<p>Each of the book&#8217;s countless sections is complete in itself but they all offer interest, for Vitaliev has an enquiring mind which leads him into meandering reflections on most things around him.</p>
<p>This book is going to be a great travel-companion when its released in paper-back.   You can dip in and out of it and not need to remember what went before.</p>
<p>As to the &#8220;mauvism&#8221; &#8211; this theme keeps coming up in the book &#8211; and Vitaliev like to categories his own work as following in the style of his Russian mentor.  One of his own descriptions of his work is, &#8220;the Badlands of literature&#8221; which is true only insofar as he covers a vast miscellany of messy subjects somehow synthesising them into this quite unique volume which is by no mean &#8220;stylish&#8221; in the usual sense but certainly kept my interest throughout.</p>
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<div id="_mcePaste"><strong>Title</strong>:  Life as a Literary Device</div>
<div id="_mcePaste"><strong>Author</strong>:  Vitali Vitaliev</div>
<div id="_mcePaste"><strong>Publication</strong>:   Beautiful Books Ltd (31 October 2009), Hardback, 565 pages<br />
<strong>ISBN</strong>:  9781905636440<span style="font-family: Verdana; line-height: normal; font-size: 12px; color: #333333;"> </span></div>
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<div id="_mcePaste">Newspaper reviews:</div>
<div>Vitiali Vitaliev&#8217;s <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vitali_Vitaliev" target="_blank">Wikipedia article</a></div>
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		<title>Review: The Diaries of Sofia Tolstoy</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 05 Feb 2010 09:01:12 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Tom</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p>I find the Alma Books catalogue always worth following, and it was a particular pleasure to discover in it the recently published Diaries of Sofia Tolstoy, with the informative and insightful introduction by Doris Lessing.</p> <p>Sofia Tolstoy&#8217;s diaries provide a dramatically different picture of Leo Tolstoy to that presented by his followers who seemed lost [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><a href="http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/book/9781846881022?a_aid=acommonreader" target="_blank"><img class="alignleft size-medium wp-image-101" title="The Diaries of Sophia Tolstoy" src="http://acommonreader.org/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/97818468810221-204x300.jpg" alt="" width="204" height="300" /></a>I find the <a href="http://www.almabooks.co.uk/index.php" target="_blank">Alma Books</a> catalogue always worth following, and it was a particular pleasure to discover in it the recently published <a href="http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/book/9781846881022?a_aid=acommonreader" target="_blank">Diaries of Sofia Tolstoy</a>, with the informative and insightful introduction by Doris Lessing.</p>
<p>Sofia Tolstoy&#8217;s diaries provide a dramatically different picture of Leo Tolstoy to that presented by his followers who seemed lost in adulation of the great man.  To them he was the inspiring writer, the saintly prophet and pacifist who renounced his worldly ambitions to follow what they saw as a simple lifestyle as a celibate and vegetarian.  Sofia&#8217;s diaries reveal a rather different character &#8211; a pronounced anti-feminist whose views of women was little less than contemptuous and whose later other-worldliness came at great cost to his family.</p>
<p>To a family like the Tolstoy&#8217;s, diaries were of crucial importance.  As Doris Lessing points out in her introduction, they were written so that others might see them.  Sofia&#8217;s diaries were, &#8220;her life&#8217;s work, and the counterpart to her life and marriage&#8221;.  As their marriage deteriorated, &#8220;it was to her diary that she confided her worst fears and deepest anxieties . . . in the hope that he might see them&#8221;.</p>
<p>The diaries of Tolstoy and his wife had to be protected and fought for.  As Tolstoy became increasingly surrounded by acolytes, Sofia had to hide her husband&#8217;s diaries away, even to the extent of depositing them in the State Bank, while her own became of immense interest, and soon, as she reports in 1910, &#8220;Now they have discovered that I am keeping a diary, they have all started scribbling <em>their </em>diaries&#8221;.  Clearly everyone wanted a part in the great man&#8217;s literary legacy.</p>
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<p>Diaries were also dangerous.  When Tolstoy married Sofia he insisted that he read his diaries, as a sort of confession.  Poor Sofia was in for a terrible shock as she read of the gambling, the sexual excess (with peasant women and prostitutes) and the drunkenness.  Sofia was an upright and moral woman who never quite got over the shock of learning of her husband&#8217;s past, and often refers in her diaries to her jealousy,</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><em>When he kisses me, I am always thinking, &#8216;I am not the first woman he has loved&#8217;.  It hurts me so much that my love for him &#8211; the dearest thing in the world to me . . . should not be enough for him.  He has loved and admired so many women, all so pretty and lively, all with different faces, characters and souls, just as he now admires me. . . it is his past which is to blame.  I can&#8217;t forgive God for making men sow their wild oats before they can become decent people. <span id="more-100"></span></em></p>
<p>I did not realise the depths of Tolstoy&#8217;s disdain for women until reading this book.  Sofia was always deeply devoted to her husband and his work.  She did everything to advance his writings and every evening copied out his untidy drafts with her neat handwriting, giving them to Tolstoy the next morning to revise &#8211; leading to more copyings on her part.  There are also references to long mornings with accountants, meetings with bank managers and battles over copyright.  Clearly Tolstoy depended on his industrious wife for much of the administrative burden arising from his work.  And yet, when she was pregnant he seemed to abandon her for long walks around his estate, causing her to write,</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><em>My pregnancy is to blame for everything &#8211; I&#8217;m in an unbearable state, physically and mentally.  I&#8217;m always ill, mentally there is this awful emptiness and boredom.  As far as Lyova is concerned I don&#8217;t exist.  I feel I am hateful to him, and want only to leave him in peace and cut myself out of his life as far as possible.  I can do nothing to make him happy, because I&#8217;m pregnant.  He has gone to his beehives.</em></p>
<p>As years went on, Sofia became aware of the sacrifice she was making and in 1902 we find her writing,</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><em>For a <strong>genius </strong>one has to create a peaceful, cheerful, comfortable home.  A <strong>genius </strong>must be fed, washed and dressed, must have his works copied out innumerable times, must be loved and spared all cause for jealousy so he can be calm.  Then one must feed and educate the innumerable children fathered by this <strong>genius</strong>, whom he cannot be bothered to care for himself, as he has to commune with all the Epictetuses, Socrateses and Buddhas, and aspire to be like them himself.  I have served a <strong>genius </strong>for almost forty years.  Hundreds of times I have felt my intellectual energy stir within me, and all sorts of desires &#8211; for edcuation, a love of music and the arts . . . and time and time again I have crushed and smothered these longings, and not and to the end of my life I shall somehow continue to serve my <strong>genius</strong>.</em></p>
<p>And indeed, Sofia was a highly cultured person in her own right.  Her love of music was quite remarkable even for a gifted amateur and we read of lengthy periods of piano practice:  &#8220;I played the piano for two and a half hours, and still didn&#8217;t master that 8th Invention by Bach&#8221;, and, &#8220;After dinner I sight-read a Schubert symphony and played a Beethoven Sonata&#8221;.  Two days later she writes,  &#8220;I had another music lesson with Miss Welsh, and afterwards I couldn&#8217;t tear myself from the piano and played another four hours.</p>
<p>Her skills were not merely musical, for in the photographic section of the book there is a fascinating photograph of Sofia Tolstoy copying a portrait in oils of her husband &#8211; and making a remarkably good job of it.</p>
<p>In later years Tolstoy became increasingly radical and a very mixed bunch of admirers gathered around her including the hated Vladimir Chertkov who acted as Tolstoy&#8217;s secretary.  By that time Sofia was made frequently distraught by the threats to her family and personal life by Tolstoy&#8217;s new ideas.  She was taking increasing amounts of opium and also making regular suicide attempts.  Chertkov saw Sofia&#8217;s demands as a threat to Tolstoy&#8217;s spiritual and intellectual life and the diaries show her great hatred of this man who took up more and more of her husband&#8217;s time and plotted against her.  When Chertkov gained permission to stay in the region in which the Tolstoy&#8217;s lived, Sofia writes,</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><em>I am aching with unbearable anguish, my heartbeat is 140 a minute, and my head and chest are aching.  This cross I have to bear is God&#8217;s will, it was sent to me by His hand and he has chosen Chertkov and Leve Nikolaevich (</em>Tolstoy<em>) to be the instruments of my death.  Maybe the sight of me lying dead with open L.N.&#8217;s eyes to my enemy and murderer, and he will grow to hate him and repent of his sinful infatuation with the man. </em></p>
<p>Poor Sofia, anyone who reads this book will feel as I did that such devotion to and sacrifice for her husband&#8217;s art could have been rewarded by more affection and loyalty on his part, but it is so often the case that visionaries and innovators such as Leo Tolstoy cause chaos and despair to their family.  My wife recently read and shared with me key points of Matisse&#8217;s biography by Hilary Spurling, and it is clear that his greatness as an artist was also built on the suffering of his wife and family.  As I read Sofia Tolstoy&#8217;s diaries, I found myself also thinking of Helen Rappaport&#8217;s book, Lenin in Exile, for Lenin was equally adulated by his following while his wife Nadya and his close friend Inessa Armand had to sacrifice themselves to the all-consuming vision of the renowned revolutionary.</p>
<p>As always with Alma publication, the book is a pleasure to handle, being beautifully designed and typeset and printed on better quality paper than is usual for a paperback.  It is illustrated with fourteen pages of photographs, some of which would be of interest to photographers as examples of how effective early photograpy was without the elaborate equipment so freely available today!  This book would be a welcome addition to any library and is essential reading for lovers of Tolstoy&#8217;s novels.</p>
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		<title>Review: The Last Cigarette &#8211; Simon Gray</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 07 Jul 2008 16:00:13 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[<p></p> <p>Note:  Since publishing this volume of his diaries, Simon Gray has now died.</p> <p>The Last Cigarette is the third volume of playwright Simon Gray&#8217;s diaries which he began with The Smoking Diaries.back in 2004.  Its not easy to categorise these books &#8211; I&#8217;ve chosen &#8220;diaries&#8221;, for most of the time they record daily events [...]]]></description>
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<p>Note:  Since publishing this volume of his diaries, Simon Gray has now died.</p>
<p><a type="amzn" href="http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/book/9781847080721/The-Last-Cigarette-v.-3?a_aid=acommonreader" target="_blank">The Last Cigarette</a> is the third  volume of playwright <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Simon_Gray" target="_blank">Simon Gray&#8217;s</a> diaries  which he began with <a type="amzn">The Smoking Diaries</a>.back  in 2004.  Its not easy to categorise these books &#8211; I&#8217;ve chosen  &#8220;diaries&#8221;, for most of the time they record daily events over the course  of a year or so, but also slip back to descriptions of events in the  past.  The free-form, conversational style gives the reader the  impression that he&#8217;s almost feel that you&#8217;re listening to Simon Gray  while chatting in a bar &#8211; which is not surprising because apparently he  writes his diaries on an A4 pad, whenever he finds himself alone in a  cafÃ©, bar or hotel room.</p>
<p>The diaries contain a wide range of  topics &#8211; descriptions of holidays in Greece and Barbados, the period  when his play Butley was being produced on Broadway, stories about  student days at Cambridge and early girlfriends, and underlying it all,  Gray&#8217;s love/hate relationship with cigarettes and his attempts to stop  smoking.  Needless to say, we never actually reach the &#8220;last cigarette&#8221;  by the end of the book, despite countless struggles during earlier  chapters.</p>
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<p>What is so appealing about the books is their extreme, almost  painful truthfulness.  Gray makes no attempt to make himself seem a  more attractive character.  He describes his weaknesses and his failings  with complete candour, and many readers, certainly myself, will  recognise their own behaviour in Gray&#8217;s diaries.  Sometimes this comes  across as almost a confessional, the sort of thing St Augustine would  have written (but Gray of course omits Augustine&#8217;s concluding prayer):</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><em>. . .  with the cool sea gleaming in the darkness, when all appears to be right  with the world as far as the eye can reach, I am still hateful, by  which I mean full of hate, and its nothing to do with the memories of  the beach, because between being down on the beach at midday and being  here at midnight, on the terrace, there should be other memories &#8211; let  them find me, the memories of some other day, let them be good and  un-choke me from this hatred that comes on me like a sickness more and  more.</em></p>
<p>(well, perhaps not <strong>quite </strong>omitting  the prayer!).</p>
<p>This is not to say Gray&#8217;s diaries are all  introspective &#8211; far from it.  There are many humerous sections, and I  particularly enjoyed reading about the lost airline baggage, the Greek  taxi-driver, the pest controller, and many other amusing episodes.</p>
<p>We  also read of many of Gray&#8217;s literary and theatrical friends, and it is  moving to read of dinners with Harold Pinter and his wife Antonia Fraser  during Pinter&#8217;s illnesses.  Gray gives many insights into Pinter&#8217;s  character, particularly his rages, which contrast with his general  gentleness and tenderness.  I think many of Gray&#8217;s personal  reminiscences of Pinter would provide useful material for future Pinter  biographers.</p>
<p>A final section of the book is set in Broadway,  where Gray&#8217;s play &#8220;Butley&#8221; was being revived, forty years after he wrote  it.  We read of a telephone call Gray receives from the producer while  on holiday in Greece, asking if Gray could re-write the final scene in  order to accommodate the deficiencies of one of the actors, who is  having difficulty in mastering the correct English tone to his part.   Gray knows in his gut that the real solution is to sack the deficient  actor, but everyone on the cast speaks so warmly of him that he goes  along with the re-write.  This proves to be far more difficult than  expected: by changing one line, you affect others, and by changing one  act, you have to make sure that earlier acts are consistent with it, and  so on.  The re-write is typed on a tiny hand-held Blackberry in an  hotel bed-room, and Gray rapidly sees that his initial compliance with  the director&#8217;s wishes in not insisting that the actor be fired is  escalating out of control.</p>
<p>By the time Gray and his wife get to  Broadway to view the rehearsals he suffers even more through his  indecisiveness and I won&#8217;t spoil the book by divulging the outcome &#8211; in  any case, most readers will recognise occasions in their own lives when  misguided concern for others led to great pain for everyone  which could  have been avoided by an initial snap-decision.</p>
<p>I find these  &#8220;Smoking Diaries&#8221; beguiling, mostly because of their candour which I  find leads me to examine my own ways of covering up and avoiding the  truth about myself.  The books almost give the reader permission to be  &#8220;real&#8221;.  I seriously doubt that Gray had any outcome like this in mind  when he wrote them, but by the end of each volume I have felt that one  other person at least feels like I do sometimes and messes up in the  same ways.</p>
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